02-03 Lecture (personal reflection)

I truely believe and appreciate about my uniqueness and that of people around me especially as I was cautiously making assumption about the world functioning in a wheel of harmony. Harmony is achieved by the infinite polarities created by the very existance of every single one of us with different and unique personality, talent, character and etc.

Now that it is established each individual is unique in some ways. Let us examine how we refer such self. In order to refer a self that is so unique, different, and thus inportant self, I personally employ this single letter, "I". I would not possibly assert that I know perfertly everything about myself. But, I can humbly tell you that it would be me who knows about myself better more than anyone in the world. With this self-recognition, I have enough knowledge and confidence to refer "my - self" as "I".

However, no matter how hard (although in reality everyone just take the use of "I" for granted) one should try to the level of self-recognition enabling oneself to call his or her self" as "I", I would not be only one using "I" to refer my ego: everyone in fact refers him/herself as "I". In some ways, do you not wonder about the possible hindrance upon your subjectivity and individuality? It is also true that while referring yourself as "I", you are losing the very notion of your "self" that is very critical and priceless. It seems to me I am giving up uniqueness and individuality, what is the result of long time self investigation and investment when using "I".

This type of concern and feeling of frustration do not last long. Instead, they are replaced by the thoughts that once again amaze me about humanity and myself. In fact, did I lose individuality? Or, am I not the person I was before? This is what's so profound--I (this applies to everyone) am still holding on and able to differenciate my "self" from others.